Lockdown Week 2



Two weeks into lockdown, three weeks into working from home. This is how I feel:

Things I’m grateful for:


  • The little robin who kept me company in the garden on Saturday and Sunday
  • Being able to run a little further than last week
  • Feeling like I’m getting better at yoga, slowly but surely 
  • Reaching out to, and have friends reach out to me who I’ve not spoken to for ages and I can’t remember why because it feels great 
  • My team. They were there for me when I had an absolute mental breakdown about life on Friday 
  • My slippers. Makes me feel dressed for the day 
  • Some positive news about the rates in Italy and Spain
  • Vampire diaries for being a good distraction 
  • Tea
  • My wrist support 
  • Leggings. Oh, how we’ve fallen back in love. 
  • Small pockets of time when I’m very productive, hopefully making up for when I just can’t concentrate 
  • The warmer weather on Saturday - I sat outside for a couple of hours, and then again on Sunday where  I went into full-on sunbathing mode. Don't worry, I used SPF.
  • Both of my parents should be working from home from Monday. My mum already has been but Dad not so far. 
  • Did I already mention tea?
  • My tidy bedroom. For once in my life, I’m managing to keep it tidy and I couldn’t have imagined a better time for this to happen. 
  • Knowing when my mind and body needs a break
  • Sticking to a half-decent sleep routine during the week
  • LinkedIn Live Streams
  • Discovering that my WiFi reaches at least halfway down my garden. Might see if it reaches the shed.
  • Hearing some good news from my family after they’d been through a super tough time. 
  • How supportive many people are being through social media. 
  • The week went very fast, I hope this pace continues through the lockdown. 
  • Now the clocks have changed, if it’s a sunny day my desk (read dining table) is absolutely bathed in sunshine from about 3 o’clock and it’s wonderful. 
  • Bon appetit videos still keeping me going 
  • I filmed a video for work and it was actually fine and did pretty well and I could actually watch it back without cringing the entire time. 
  • I've discovered a style of summer dress I really like so might buy a few more as that makes me happy. 


The worst bits:


  • Worrying about the future 
  • Lack of communication in some respects. 
  • Not being able to go to work
  • Not being able to visit my boyfriend 
  • Not being able to visit my friends
  • Seeing people on social media and the news ignoring the lockdown rules
  • The worry that this is the start of a dystopian nightmare 
  • My inability to concentrate for long periods of time on reading a book... although this seems to be changing. 
  • Health anxiety
  • Anxiety so bad my chest hurts 
  • My mystery pain from a few years back has returned full force - it means it's either anxiety-related or running related. I'm going to ignore it. 
  • It’s become quite apparent how impatient I am
  • Seeing how many people are dying 
  • Knowing people who have got sick or worse from Corona. 
  • Still sad about my mental health and the realisation that it was in a pretty good place before this happened and now it’s not so much. 
  • Some people are super supportive, and some people are not and make you feel like your feelings are not valid, or that you’re a hindrance, or that you’re not worth it. 
  • I can’t find my sunglasses and I think this may become an issue soon. 
  • The immense amount of pressure I’ve put on myself this week to do lots of things. I need to stop. 
  • I miss my boyfriend's dog, Jazz.