Friends can break your heart too


Let me grab you for a minute. Adult friendships. Where do you stand on them? How are you supposed to feel when a friendship ends when you’re a grown up? How does it happen? It’s a bit weird right. You kind of imagine this stuff stops when you leave school.

As we get older, it’s expected that our friendship groups will take twists and turns. People are going to come and go, it’s natural. You meet new people and grow apart from others.

But don’t you think that adult relationships are hard? They’re messy and can be difficult to manoeuvre. Sometimes stuff might get blown out of proportion, and it might not be rectified because that’s just how life is. I think it’s tricky because you can’t really ever be sure if a friendship is over for good, or if you might be able to continue where you left off.

I feel like everything can be a lot more harsh as an adult. It cuts close to the bone. It can be downright horrible. The worst bit is when there is no outlet to get all your emotions out. I look back at when I was at school and remember that even if you had an absolute raging argument with someone during a lunchtime and you might swear you hate them for ever and ever, chances are, by the next week you were best buds again. Okay, maybe not best buds, but you get the idea. I think by getting it all out there, you’re able to move on quicker, deal with the situation, and go on with your life.

I think sometimes, we all like to brush off how much losing a friend can affect us. After all, friends are just friends, right? They’re not as serious as a relationship with a significant other.

Or are they?


Friends are there for us when we need a shoulder to cry on. Friends are there for us when we want to go on a spontaneous shopping trip. Friends are there when we want to go exploring. Friends are there for us when times are great. Friends are there for us when times get tough. Friends play a huge part in our day to day happiness. You might have had a crappy day at work, you might want to let off some steam, or you might have just got the best news ever and want to share with someone.

The thing that hurts me the most, is the history that’s there. You don’t make friends with someone just to be there for five minutes, it’s an investment, for both of you. You don’t head into a friendship thinking there’s going to be an expiry date. You’re in it for the long haul.

I feel like people never talk about what it’s like once you’ve actually lost a friend. It’s all swept up under the carpet and never spoken of again - in most cases. But like, why does it have to be like that? Why don’t people talk about it more? It’s almost like you have to put up this shield in front of people, and you have to be okay.

I don’t think it should be that way. I think we should all talk about these things, and be open about them more. If it upset us, bloody say so! Enough with pretending everything is fine.

Friends can break your heart, and there’s no shame in being upset about it.

Much Love


Daring to be vulnerable is brave


Ctrl Alt Delete: How I grew up online by Emma Gannon

Admittedly, I feel like I’m a little late to the party here, but I HAVE to talk about this book. Ctrl Alt Delete is written by Emma Gannon, a fellow blogger, speaker and podcast host. It

I wanted to talk about a few key points from this book that I enjoyed. Let’s get into it.

I found this book #relatable. Emma recounts various memories of online experiences she’s had on the web, as a teenager and young adult. I had the internet in my house from around the age of 10 and have fond memories of sitting there waiting for dial up and my AOL account to load. Having the internet back then was super cool. I remember having an AOL kids browser that was brightly coloured and had loads of links to chat rooms, music and videos. Oh, how it’s changed! The book gave me a healthy dose of nostalgia and really made me think how strange it is that children right now have never not known the internet. That’s so weird!

Friendships come up within the book, and I found this particularly interesting, especially at the moment. I’m 21. I’m being propelled into proper adulthood, and am amazed at how much stress is thrown at friendships. I thought it would get easier, but I’m starting to see it only gets more challenging. Emma talks about the friendship pyramid. This is the idea that you have different levels of friends, you have a smaller group who are closest to you, then a slightly bigger group of friends, and then an even bigger group of acquaintances. I love this and am pretty sure we all have our very own friendship pyramids.

A quote that really stuck in my mind which Emma uses in the book was “Your twenties is like a friendship massacre”. Like wow, okay, let me strap in for this friendship rollercoaster that’s about to hit!



Throughout the book, I also really enjoyed snippets from Emma’s early career. What pathways she took, ups and downs within the industry, and how social media has steadily worked its way into being a huge part of everyday life. When I was still at school, I wanted to be a computer games designer. Hey, maybe one day that will happen, but I also I had no idea that I would become an expert in social media. Back then the platforms either didn’t exist or were only just starting to pick up speed. I really enjoyed reading about how Emma experienced the transition from more traditional media to the modern kind we know and love today, and hearing her tales of how she fell into getting an internet job. Again with the #relatable.

Overall, I would highly recommend this book, especially if you’re just starting your career, and need some inspiration from a pro. Also, if you grew up with the internet, definitely give this a read for a healthy dose of nostalgia. But I mean obvs, the title should have given this one away!

Want to be inspired? Want to improve? Want to push yourself? Read this book. Immerse yourself in it, take notes, enjoy it, and pay attention.

Thanks for stopping by. If you want to see what I’m currently reading (and be a stalker and see what I’ve read in the past) you can check out my GoodReads account. I update it regularly.

Much love



"Daring to be vulnerable is brave. Daring to speak up about the unspeakable is a powerful thing" - Emma Gannon

Bullet Journaling Changed My Life - 7 Reasons Why


Since I’ve started bullet journaling back in March, things have taken a complete turn in my life, for the better!

At the start of this year, I was feeling so down in the dumps. I’ve never been so miserable! I needed something that was going to benefit my own well-being and would help to lift me up, allow me to be productive, and give me some kind of creative outlet where I could focus on something and forget all the things that were bothering me.

That’s where bullet journaling came to my rescue. One miserable Friday night, I made a spontaneous trip to Rymans (wild night, I know - living my best life), and bought so many stationery supplies. Like seriously, you would not believe how many.

Here are the 7 ways bullet journaling turned my life around:

1. Feeling like I have a grip on things


Sometimes I don’t think you realise how bad things are until there’s a change. I didn’t realise at the time how out of control I felt, in regards to everything. Whether it be weekend plans, my blog, my health, my life! I was floating through life thinking that I had it together, for the most part anyway, and that’s just how things would be.

Oh, how wrong I was.

Bullet journals are traditionally composed of logs and collections. Logs to track what’s happening that year, month, week, right down to the day, and collections to track things you like, films you’ve enjoyed, favourite recipes, workouts, if you can think of it, you can have a collection for it. It was these parts of bullet journaling combined which really helped me get my shit together.

At first, I didn’t really have much to write in all my logs. Pretty depressing huh? But that gave me a little kick on the behind to start planning stuff. To plan things that I’d be able to look forward to, to track my favourite things (it now gives binging that series on Netflix a bit of extra purpose!).

Since starting my bujo (bullet journal, let’s get down with the lingo) back in March, I’ve done so many exciting things. I’ve planned fun days out, I’ve attended and booked in events I want to go to in the coming months. And I’ve got somewhat of a weekly routine figured out. It’s not perfect, but of course it’s not, that’s real life! But I’m actually making a conscious effort now to fill up my journal with exciting things happening in the future. Every time I open it I see something I can look forward to. It’s an instant dose of happiness.

2. Habit trackers


Back when I was browsing the interwebs high and low for bujo inspiration, (I still do this daily) habit trackers would always catch my eye. I find it SO COOL to see what I’m doing daily and to have a record of it. Habit trackers are eye opening. I love how everyone’s is different. We all track different things, we’ve all got different areas we want to focus on, and I love that!

A habit tracker is like a window into someone else’s life. I genuinely find it fascinating. I find my habit tracker really motivating. I don’t know what it is about the pleasure of colouring in a tiny square in my journal, but it makes me (at least try to) get shit done.

Even if I’m having the busiest day, and don’t have masses of time for my journal, I’ll always try to dedicate five minutes to fill out my habit tracker for the day.

3. Collections


I don’t know about others who have started a bullet journal, but for me, the sheer amount of collection ideas out there was overwhelming at first. I remember setting up my journal and not really knowing where to begin. People have such beautiful designs, and useful, wonderful collections, it can all be a bit intimidating!

I’ve found that over time, I’ve stopped seeking out collections that I must include, and have instead found inspiration when I’m least expecting it. Don’t feel pressured to add lots of collections when you first start. Some of my favourite collections have actually been ones that I’ve drawn through half way through my journal. Collection ideas will come to you when you need/want them.

Some of my favourite collections in my journal are:

- A reading List
- Podcasts tracker
- Tv/film watch list
- Favourite artists

4. Daily Logs


At first I remember thinking, “I’m never going to write in daily logs.” LOL just look at me now! To be honest, a the very beginning I didn’t really write much in my daily logs. But now, some days each box I have drawn for the days can be full! I use my daily logs as a bit of a free for all for my brain. I jot down ideas, things I need to do, things I’ve done that I don’t want to forget, reminders, train times, events, you name it, it’s in there.

By jotting everything down, it gives me space to think. I didn’t realise before bullet journaling, but I think my head used to be quite cluttered. I’m not a very forgetful person, but I’d constantly be thinking to myself, “Oh that’s happening later, I mustn't forget,” or “That’s a great idea for my blog, I must remember it for later”. There was just a lot going on, a lot whirring around my brain. Now, I get it all written down, and in some ways, it lets me let go of everything. There’s no pressure to remember bits and bobs because I know it’s safely written down in my bullet journal.

I would strongly recommend you also have a brain dump page in each month of your bujo! It will come in very handy as the days and months go by!

5. Not looking at a screen all day


I work in an office, where my entire job involves me staring at a screen all day. I then get home and used to unwind by also starting at a screen all evening. Whether that be the TV, my laptop, or just my phone! And don’t forget blogging, that all happens with me sat in front of my laptop too!

Bullet journaling has helped give me that time where I’m away from the screen. It’s still within reach, and I do like to fill in my journal whilst watching TV, but I’m not glued to it. It gives my eyes a break and makes me feel better. Sometimes looking at a screen for too long can make me feel sick, stifled, and trapped. My bullet journal is a bit of an escape in that sense. It’s real, it exists. It’s a physical object in the real world. It’s also really rewarding looking back on your journal, and being able to say, I did that. I drew that, or I made that page look the way it does. It’s very satisfying knowing you did it and not a computer.

6. It’s a great creative outlet


As a kid, I used to be quite a creative child, but during my early teen, this dwindled. I didn’t really think I was any good at being creative, so I just stopped. Bullet journaling has given me a wave of new ideas and a love for drawing has surfaced. Who knew?

Bullet journals can be what you want them to be. At first it can sometimes be a little tricky to figure out what kind of style you want to have in your journal. I remember at first I wanted it to look and feel quite like a scrapbook. I wanted to have lots of colour on each page, and stick things in, like tickets, mementos, you get the picture. However, I then discovered some awesome videos on YouTube featuring some more minimalistic bullet journals, and they looked amazing! So then I was torn.

Since then, I’ve ended up somewhere in the middle with my bujo style. I like to doodle in any gaps, and stick special things in, or at least keep them in the folder at the back (concert tickets etc), but I also really love keeping some pages super minimal.

I love mixing up the styles and colours each month, including my layouts for each type of log. It lets me see what’s working and what’s not, and the best bit? If I don’t like something I just change it next time. No worries.

I’d also recommend buying some washi tape. If you’re ever having trouble setting up a page, use this - it will work wonders!

7. Boosted My Motivation - for everything!


As I mentioned earlier, at the beginning of this year I was in real need of a pick me up. I didn’t really have anything concrete in my head goal-wise and was just fumbling through everything feeling rather lost. Starting a bullet journal has helped me change this. It’s given me a way to monitor how things are going, and help me plan out how I’m going to work towards things I care about. Whether that be paying more attention to skin care, exercising more, or reading more. I use my bullet journal as a tracker for so many things, and it keeps me motivated. At the end of the day, the more I can tick off in my journal, the more accomplished I feel.

To sum it all up, if you’ve never heard of bullet journaling, head over to Pinterest RIGHT NOW and take a look at my bujo inspiration board. You will be fixated on all the things you can do with a bujo. Give it a go, seriously. Bullet journaling has made me really happy and focused, which was unexpected! I thought I’d probably give up after a day or so, and yet here we are over 3 months later!

This post all commences the beginning of a bullet journal series I’m going to be writing. I’m not going to put a number on it because I’m learning new things about bujo methods every day, so I will share things for as long as I can! Check back next week to read all about my favourite bullet journal collections.

Much love




Hello, it's me...

It's me!


Welcome to rawrrbecca.co.uk! I am so excited to come back into the blogging world, and am absolutely buzzing about it! And yes, I hope I've got that Adele song stuck in your head now.

There’s a chance that you’ve visited my old blog (if you want to be a stalker, some of my old content is still floating around the archives), there’s also a strong chance you haven’t. To break the ice, and get things going, I thought I’d write a little bit of an introduction for you, fabulous reader of mine.

Grab yourself a cuppa and we’ll begin.

I started writing back in 2014 during study leave for my A-Levels. Yes, I know, I should have been revising, but hey, if a girl wants to write, she gotta write! My content used to be pretty makeup and beauty focused. It was something I was exploring at the time and learning about. I loved those days, but now I want to write about more! I’ve grown up a lot since there and have got so many thoughts and ideas floating around my head, I need to share them!

At the start of 2017, I was feeling pretty pants about everything. I was really down in the dumps about a lot of things and felt like I was losing control of everything. I wasn’t having the best time, and on top of that, I felt so unenthused about my blog I thought it was over. For good!

Thankfully, that’s not the case. I spent a lot of time working out what I liked and what I didn’t like about things going on in my life.  I tried to make changes where I could so that I’d be as happy as I can be. There was no miracle cure, let that be clear, but things are feeling a lot better right now, and I’m in a much better place mentally. Self-care is important!

So, the important question is, what’s to come in regards to my blog?

Well, SO. MANY. THINGS.

Remember me saying I wasn’t enjoying my blog? Well, that’s because of the content I was producing. I needed fresh ideas, I wanted to learn new things, and I wanted to widen my horizons. I’m aware that sounds terribly cringe and so very cliche, but hey ho, sometimes life is cliche. Whatevs!

Over the last couple of months, I’ve made a real effort to absorb content that I find interesting. I’ve buried my head in content from the likes of Emma Gannon, Chloe Plumstead, Lily Melrose, Grace Victory, Katie Snooks, Louise Pentland, Sara Tasker, Sophia Amoruso, Olivia Purvis, the list is as long as my arm, honestly. And have been so inspired by these lovely ladies. I feel like I’ve got my mojo back, and have felt so motivated to write again.

In regards to new content, I’ve got a lot of exciting things planned for everyone who stumbles across my lil blog. Ever heard of bullet journaling? If that’s down your street, STAY TUNED, because let me tell you, I am obsessed! There will be many a post on bullet journaling. I’m also going to be talking about books I’ve read and have thought they’re worth sharing, podcasts that I’m enjoying, food posts, opinion pieces, career chat, seriously guys, you’re in for a treat.

I’m really excited about rebooting my blog and am so excited for you to come along for the ride. Since it’s a bank holiday I’m going to be giving you a splendid new post every day this weekend. I know, such fun! I hope you enjoy them as much I loved creating them. Thank YOU for reading my blog today.

Much Love,



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"Growth demands a temporary surrender of security." - Gail Sheehy